As taken from a forum post: R.I.P.

I use to blog furiously. Okay, not furiously, but I used to blog voluminously would be more like it. I like keeping the ends tied up so when certain parts of my life ended, so did the active lives of certain blogs. I went back and took them down, taking care to copy every page into a Word document. Apparently my old xanga was about 186 pages on Word. X_X So crazy.

But now I've realized that I can't really blog for audiences. Or rather, I can, but it's counterproductive. The whole purpose of blogging was never really to express myself, but to understand myself. I figure things out by writing-- in the process I realize what's true, and what I make up and convince everyone (including myself) about what is true. But it's too hard to simply think it through, I have to write. So blogging has always been about self-discovery for me. But when I publically blog, I get into things that might hurt others (not to be melodramatic) I wonder about whether I really think certain people are important to me, I think about whether I am simply acting the part of friendship; things that I wouldn't be able to say to their faces, for fear of hurting the other person, but also because I don't know where it's going, so I don't know what I'm going to say. In the end, what happens to almost any blog is that it becomes, in a certain way, tailored to those whom I know read that blog. Which is counterproductive. So I think I'm pretty much done blogging publically, at least in terms of normal blogging.

I think I'll have one more blog though; and it'll be made for the right reasons, sort of. No more of this hiding business, I think.